COURAGE FOUND! ...Abused

COURAGE FOUND… Abused

There was a time long ago

It was here, that I know

I knew I used it long before

I put it safe behind the door

But only then I couldn’t find

Lost inside my tortured mind

Panic buttons I did hit

Running now in a fit

It was here! It really was!

And now it’s gone. Oh it was

But if it went then why I say

Did it feel like yesterday?

It’s bugging me, this little thing!

Can’t sit still, nor can I sing!

Oh my God do I feel stupid!

It never was so deeply rooted!

It was a moment I did fear

It was a moment in a year

But truly now I know I had it

Didn’t know that I could grab it

I let it hold me very tight

It was so dark and like the night

A weight so heavy in my chest

But frozen feet stay at rest

It squeezed my throat. No more voice

It screamed at me I had no choice

Left me lying in my body

Nothing worked, somewhat gaudy

It pounded, slapped and cursed at me

It Beat my soul relentlessly

And yet I watched and took it all

I had my back against the wall

I cried, said stop, just go away

Why me? What for? Why this day?

When in my mind I chose to die

My heart cried out “it’s a lie!”

I couldn’t save me anymore

Message sent to my hearts door

No more pain, no more sorrow

I will not wake on the morrow

It’s not the death that I did want

It was the pain and all the taunt

No living creature should endure

This evil force for ever more

All the parts that sought to fight

They scurried round with all their might

Don’t let her go she needs to stay

This is not her dying day

Nothing shone upon her face

The beast of burden won his place

He won the battle he fought hard

He walked away and left his guard

Minutes sent from parts in seconds

Urgent calls and body beckons

Oh the brain it could not stop

The lying body would not drop

Within a second not too late

A flame of hope demonstrate

A breath of courage blazed on in

Ready for the evil’s grin

And there it was I had found it

My ears and soul did resound it

Eye to eye this devil here

I stared right at the face of fear

Unto this beast and horrid man

My virtue came and eyes did scan

Hot headed monster, bully too!

You poor dear soul, there’s nothing in you!

#PaulaG

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#Life is a precious gift! It’s not all pleasant for everyone. There are many things we can fix, but never can we control the acts of another. That is not our jurisdiction.

Some of us have it worse,

Some are prone to pain

Some never knew what it was

Some cannot explain.

Abuse in any shape or form

Is crime unto the brain!

No other life can we perform

For fear is this domain.

Of any word said obscured

Can have a mighty blow!

It’s not a choice to stay in pain

It’s something you don’t know.

For those who live and carry on

Through your courage! You have won!

But if you suffer or know one too

This is wrong and you must do,

All you can to help and change

This world of evil so deranged!

Do not judge or make a statement

Rather look and seek abatement .

Stand for #courage in your words

It is in this when not inferred!

To make a difference to this crime

In every act, one at a time!

Raise your voice, and children too!

Have I made it clear for you?